2020 The Year of Sucking
Well, I'm just gonna say it. 2020 f*cking sucks.
I don't feel like many people disagree, and if you do, well honestly this just isn't the place for you. You're too happy and doing far too well at this stage in life right now to be here.
But yeah, 2020 sucks. Where do I even begin?
Well, for starters I am currently posting this from the comfort of my bed, which I haven't left in days due to the deadly virus that has kept not just me in quarantine, but quite literally the rest of the world. And yes, I am aware of some of the benefits that have been happening like, oh I don't know, the world going back to its natural habitat and restoring to its full beauty. But I mean we always knew people were the problem.
So now, here we all are locked away like Rapunzel in our tower, except instead of an evil stepmom we have a deadly virus. It's like the same, but different. And don't get me wrong, I completely think it is necessary to handle things like this, but again, and I cannot emphasize this enough - it sucks.
Ever since New Years, my friends and I have agreed that there's bad juju in the air. Mercury was in retrograde and I personally started off the year with my heart getting broken after two years. Yes - I am fully aware this happens and is a part of life. But I am just as much aware of how much this freaking sucks (let's see how many times I use this word in the post, so far it's four). My entire world got flipped upside down and I had to learn to adapt (still am, not doing a good job at it, thanks for asking, will address at another time, it's fine, we're fine, everything is fine).
Then Kobe died and the world came together to mourn the loss of a legend, and all others affected. That day, everyone felt a blanket of sadness fall over the world, as we all felt the loss, the loss of a legend, an athlete, a son, a father, a husband, and a human being. It shook people, he was so young and it was so unexpected it really changed the world. It left us (at least me) thinking about the future and the fact that it is not a promise.
And then sometime within the past few months, our lives turned into a simulation. The uncertainty of the future and panic we felt was suddenly becoming an indefinite reality.
At first, it started with just the school closing and online classes becoming a thing. But then proms were canceled and the seniors had to realize they may never get to walk for graduation. Stores followed soon after, people started to work from home or worse, lost their jobs or their family members.
The world changed and we have no choice but to change with it (something I am struggling with). Isolation has become the norm and this new virtual reality seems to be the only one we know now. 'Social Distancing' (necessary and needed) has become a trend on Instagram and I swear I will go crazy if I see one more video of people doing push-ups because they were 'tagged to'. But this is our new simulation now, the world changed and we have to adapt to it.
So yes, 2020 sucks. It feels like the floor was pulled out right from under me in every way and I just want this Black Mirror episode to end. But until then, I have created this blog to be a source for me to a) not go crazy within these four walls b) stay connected and c) be an outlet for me and my creativity, and d) finally pursuing my dream of becoming the next Carrie Bradshaw.
I hope you continue to join me on this journey since there is nothing else to do. So a cheers from me to you, as I drink alone in my quarantined room celebrating the shitty year 2020 has been. I look forward to the many (hopefully) entertaining posts it will produce. I mean if this year gonna suck as bad as it has, might as well get some (again, hopefully good) content out of it.
